Keputusan ini moga Allah redha.
United Kingdom, the ticket which I had bought months ago.
The choice of place for winter holiday that we've been talking about since last sem ! :D
is not what Allah had planned for me.
Someone needs me more at home.
I knew it from her body language. From her face expression.
Responsibility, love. Wasn't that hard to make the decision.
Me : You miss me don't you? That's why you are sick. Hmmm, can you guess what's on my
mind?
She : NO. The answer is no! You'll be travelling back home alone. (She will never ever ever let me go anywhere alone, not knowing my experience 'redah apa saja' here and in INTEC)
Me : Please, let me take care of you.
She : There are a lot of ppl who can take care of me here, dah sihat dah pun..
Me : pleaseeeee nak balik jugak. I've consider so many things. bla bla bla bla bla bla..
and finally..
She : Hmm, baliklah..kalau kakak tak susah...
*tears. For me, she would do anything. Just say it, she would try her best to give it to me, to fulfil it, anything for her princess she said. and now, after 21 years, she is still considering if she is burdening me or not.
Of course not. Never will. Never was. Because I strongly believe, that every single thing that I do for you, will surely be eased and blessed by Him. Redha Allah terletak pada redhanya ibu bapa.
"Buatlah istikharah..do it again and again" They said.
Dear London, my dream place, see you next time, perhaps with her?
InsyaAllah.
Bercakap mengenai istikharah...
Istikharah is not like just throwing a dice which you can use to make decisions. It is a third of the 3 steps decision-making-process.
Step 1 : Use your akal or intellectual ability given by Allah to think. To consider manymanymany things.
Step 2 : Istisyarah. Seek for advices from the 'right' people.
Step 3 : Istikharah. Usually before making any decisions your heart is already prone to something, so at this stage, you hope for that little extra confidence and a clear heart and mind.
Or maybe, Allah can make you doubt it?
May Allah guide us in every single step.
Jawapannya pasti baik, khair belaka.
"..boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal ia baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mngetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
Al Baqarah : 216
Allah knows best !
ps. Exammmm. Doakan, dikuatkan ingatan, ditinggikan kefahaman, dilapangkan hati, ditenangkan jiwa, dipermudahkan segala urusan.
pps. Syafakillah ibu <3
ppps, Guess what, after I successfully convinced her to let me come home this winter holiday, I can sense her excitement, and semangat (unlike the whole week before) *perasan* and yet she told everyone "Nabila ni mmg degil"..:D takpe2, as long as you are getting better, alhamdulillah.
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| winter 2012 |
Assalamualaikum.
