Counting down

Today : 14th december 2013




lets do a count down.



4 weeks and 2 days till winter exam.

6 weeks till Italia, london and espana.




Only, if Allah wills.




"Jagalah Allah dan Allah akan menjagamu."
(Hadith riwayat Tirmizi, Hadith ke 19 susunan Imam Nawawi)



The question is, kita dah jaga Allah kah?


***


My favourite season is here. WINTER ER ER. chumacecoe zima.

I wonder how snow flakes have such beautiful shapes!



ILMAL YAQEEN. AINAL YAQEEN. HAQQUL YAQEEN.

3 types of yaqeen that is mentioned in quran.

Ilmal yaqeen and ainal yaqeen is mentioned is surah Takathur.





An analogy of them.

while you are walking, you see a smoke comes out from a building. So based on your knowledge ('ilm) you conclude that theres a fire. Did you see the fire? NO.

This is ilmal yaqeen, a certainty based on knowledge.


If you are still unsatisfied, you come nearer to the building, and now you see the fire. and of course you are convinced that the bulding is on fire.

this is ainal yaqeen.


Okay fine, you said. there might be an optical illusion you know? when the fire you see isnt actually a fire, so the fool you try to put your finger in the fire, wanna make sure, is it real or not?
Ouchh.
yeah, now you are convinced, it really is.

This is haqqul yaqeen.


So we humans, Allah puts us on a higher level that only based on our knowledge, our akal, we can have faith in Allah, akhirat is so real, death is so real. Allah is really there, watching us, listening to us. Our daily acts sometimes do not show that we reaaaaally believe in that. T_T

So back to snowflakes, based on our knowledge something so amazing, so wonderful, and every single thing must have a creator. We might not SEE Him. We might not TOUCH Him. But,

He's there. Ilmal yaqeen.


ps. back to dermato. yosh!

pps. ya Latifu ultuf bina..


 (O Gentle One, be gentle with us)

Qawiyyy

means kuat.



"A strong woman is the one who feels deeply 

and loves fiercely.

Her tears flow just as abundantly as her smile,

A strong woman is both soft, and powerful,

she is both practical and spiritual."



aiwahhh !

Relationship

Sometimes we forget, by talking bad about others doesn't make you look any good, nor make you better.

If by doing so, makes you feel better and makes you look 'cool', 

pity you, then.

***

When you know you are blessed so much by Allah, isn't that the greatest feeling ever?

 By the light of early morning

 and the still night

 Your Lord has neither leave you nor hated you.

 and indeed what comes after is better FOR YOU than what has gone by..

(ad-dhuha:1-4)

Because Allah will never leave you, will never hate you.

and He even promised that, what will happen in future is better for you that what has gone by.

so wipe away your tears, something big is coming, iAllah.

I, seriously feel loved. Thank you, Allah.

ps. i miss blogging :/

Bawa lari

"Allah tidak menjadikan bagi seseorang dua hati dalam rongganya.." (33:4)

Hati itu satu. Baik atau buruk. Hitam atau putih. Hati itu yang pilih.

Lagu zaman sekolah rendah, baru skrg faham.



ps. Exam is around the corner. May Allah ease. May Allah bless.

Yang tertarik itu menarik.

Masa lecture Neurology tadi dihabiskan dgn membaca 'Dalam Dekapan Ukhuwah' karya Salim A.Fillah. Buku yang selalu buat saya tersenyum sendirian, bait2 yang indah, analogi-analogi yang menarik, bahasa (indon) yang tidak terlalu direct, membuatkan mereka yang membacanya sering berfikir.

*Hmmm, maafkan kami cikgu, susah sangat nak focus dgn cikgu neuro yang sorg ni T_T*

Terbaca mengenai sesuatu yang tertempek ke dahi sendiri mmg best. Tarbiyah dari Allah ada di mana-mana.

"Selalu ada pilihan saat kita bicara dgn seseorg. 
Pilihan untuk memenangkan pandangan kita, 
atau memenangkan hatinya. 
Debat berarti mengajukan hujah. 
Yang bisa takluk oleh hujah, hanya akal. 
Yang bisa tunduk pada dalil, hanya otak. 

Bukan jiwa. Bukan hati. 
Padahal Allah sudah menggariskan bahawa perubahan suatu kaum dimulai dari perubahan jiwa.."

Mengingatkan saya kepada satu insiden hari sabtu lepas, di mana kami dikacau oleh budak2 nakal rusia. Ada diantara kami yang ditolak, dipijak kakinya, ditunjukkan gambar 'NAZI' dan bahkan mereka mengambil gambar kami (what for? sy tak tahu =.=' )

Mungkin atas dasar rasa ingin membela diri, kami melawan, dia yang ditolak menolak kembali, yang dipijak kakinya bertnyakan 'Ti chio?' dgn muka tak puas hati, dan saya, bila dah melihat mereka mengambil gambar kami, dgn senang hatinya, mengeluarkan 'tab' dari dlm beg dan mengambil kembali gambar lelaki tersebut (kelakar pun ade :p )

Nak dipendekkan cerita, akibatnya, 3 org lelaki tadi yang mengacau kami dalam tram tersebut, panggil konco2 mereka dan kejar kami.

Allah itu dekat. Alhamdulillah Allah tolong dgn bermacam-macam cara, sampai lah ke balai polis..
huh. what a day.

Advice taken. lessons learned.

Tak perlu untuk kita membela diri dgn org mcm tu. Biarkan mereka puas hati. Biarkan mereka menang.

Akan selalu ada pilihan..utk memenangkan kebenaran atau memenangkan hati lawan.

Kisah Nabi Ibrahim berdebat dgn Namrud yang mengakui dirinya tuhan, yang menghidupkan yang mematikan. Lalu Ibrahim bertanyakan kepadanya, soalan yang tidak terjawab oleh Namrud "Rabbku itu mendatangkan mentari dari timur, maka datangkanlah ia dari barat!" 
Dia takjub pada hujah Nabi Ibrahim.

Tapi adakah dia beriman selepas itu? TIDAK. (hidayah Allah bukan utknya)

women's day.

accidentally joining maslinitsa celebration

to be beautiful,,from alia <3

ps. Nak merubah seseorg itu bermula dgn mengusik jiwanya. bukan dgn mencalarkan egonya.
Saya faham. Saya faham.

pps. yok jadi manusia 'logam' mcm Umar al Khattab? :D terpilihnya dia semasa jahiliyah terpilih juga  dia semasa islam.

ppps. btw, it all depends on your situation. If you NEED to voice out, then..

Assalamualaikum ;)

Cemburu lah

"Alangkah syahdu menjadi kepompong, berkarya dalam

diam, bertahan dalam kesempitan. Tetapi bila tiba waktu

untuk jadi kupu-kupu, tak ada pilihan selain terbang menari,

melantun kebaikan di antara bunga, menebar keindahan pada dunia.

Alangkah damai menjadi bebijian, bersembunyi di kegelapan,

menanti siraman hujan, menggali hunjaman dalam-dalam.

Tetapi bila tiba saat untuk tumbuh dan mekar,

tak ada pilihan kecuali menyeruak menampilkan diri,

bercecabang menggapai langit, membagikan buah manis di tiap musim

pada segenap penghuni bumi.

Dan matahari pun mendakapnya, dalam hangat serta cahaya.

Aku cemburu."

-Salim A.Fillah-

Penulis cemburu. Kupu-kupu dan bebijian tiada pilihan lain selain daripada 'menyerlahkan' dirinya mengikut fitrah. Melantun kebaikan-kebaikannya pada sekalian alam.

Tapi manusia punyai pilihan. Dan ramai yang tersalah membuat pilihan.

Tidakkah kamu juga cemburu akan kupu-kupu dan biji-bijian itu?

Saya cemburu!


Back to January

new year's project with intan

I went back home right after my TOPAN paper. It was a tough time, to be honest. Sitting in front of the teacher to answer your questions orally while knowing your mother is in the OT, was not the best feeling.

Alhamdulillah everything went well. If this whole situation had taught me something, it would be patience.

Allah was 'talking' to me directly about patience. Something you couldn't read from the books. ^_^

and of course my mother means the world to me. <3

and yeah, alhamdulillah, done with my postponed ENT paper. (sape suruh tak nak study kat rumah, balik sini kene curi2 study ent masa cycle ophthalmo dgn Gendoyan) aiyooi T_T

Allah Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang. Disebalik ujian yang Allah beri, bukan sahaja ada hikmahnya bahkan Allah beri lagi kemudahan yang sgt banyak, dalam menyenangkan kita.

and now, i miss home already! 

4th year second sem, may Allah ease :)

ps. Ada yang cakap, "cukuplah aku solat 5 waktu, jaga puasa, jaga aurat, bayar zakat, tak buat maksiat." Betul ke cukup setakat itu? Kalau lah islam is all abt that masakan perjalanan dakwah nabi SAW mengambil selama bertahun-tahun lamanya. Masakan umat islam pada zaman itu disuruh berperang. Masakan saudara kita di Palestina, di Syria masih teguh, masih kukuh dalam perjuangan mereka hari ini.

pps. "Dakwah adalah cinta. Dan cinta akan meminta semuanya dari dirimu. Sampai pikiranmu. Sampai pemerhatianmu. Berjalan, duduk, dan tidurmu. Bahkan di tengah lelapmu, isi mimpimu pun ttg dakwah." Dakwah, itu sunnah Rasulullah. Jangan kita jadi penyebar duri pada jalan dakwah. Jangan kita musuhi mereka yang berdakwah kpd Allah. 

jzkk :))

Khair

Keputusan ini moga Allah redha.

United Kingdom, the ticket which I had bought months ago.

The choice of place for winter holiday that we've been talking about since last sem ! :D

is not what Allah had planned for me.




Someone needs me more at home.

I knew it from her body language. From her face expression.

Responsibility, love. Wasn't that hard to make the decision.

Me : You miss me don't you? That's why you are sick. Hmmm, can you guess what's on my 

        mind?

She : NO. The answer is no! You'll be travelling back home alone. (She will never ever ever let me go anywhere alone, not knowing my experience 'redah apa saja' here and in INTEC)

Me : Please, let me take care of you.

She : There are a lot of ppl who can take care of me here, dah sihat dah pun..

Me :  pleaseeeee nak balik jugak. I've consider so many things. bla bla bla bla bla bla..

and finally..

She : Hmm, baliklah..kalau kakak tak susah...

*tears. For me, she would do anything. Just say it, she would try her best to give it to me, to fulfil it, anything for her princess she said. and now, after 21 years, she is still considering if she is burdening me or not.

Of course not. Never will. Never was. Because I strongly believe, that every single thing that I do for you, will surely be eased and blessed by Him. Redha Allah terletak pada redhanya ibu bapa.

"Buatlah istikharah..do it again and again" They said. 

Alhamdulillah, urusan dipermudahkan, keyakinan hati, kelapangan dada, serta mimpi. Diharapkan jawapan petunjuk terbaik yang Allah beri.

Dear London, my dream place, see you next time, perhaps with her?

InsyaAllah.

Bercakap mengenai istikharah...

Istikharah is not like just throwing a dice which you can use to make decisions. It is a third of the 3 steps decision-making-process.

Step 1 : Use your akal or intellectual ability given by Allah to think. To consider manymanymany things.
Step 2 : Istisyarah. Seek for advices from the 'right' people.
Step 3 : Istikharah. Usually before making any decisions your heart is already prone to something, so at this stage, you hope for that little extra confidence and a clear heart and mind.

Or maybe, Allah can make you doubt it?

May Allah guide us in every single step.

Jawapannya pasti baik, khair belaka.

"..boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal ia baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mngetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." 

Al Baqarah : 216

Allah knows best !


ps. Exammmm. Doakan, dikuatkan ingatan, ditinggikan kefahaman, dilapangkan hati, ditenangkan jiwa, dipermudahkan segala urusan.

pps. Syafakillah ibu <3

ppps, Guess what, after I successfully convinced her to let me come home this winter holiday, I can sense her excitement, and semangat (unlike the whole week before) *perasan* and yet she told everyone "Nabila ni mmg degil"..:D takpe2, as long as you are getting better, alhamdulillah.

winter 2012

Assalamualaikum.